My siblings have yet to move out of from our childhood home and I’ve been of to uni.
I am so empty and it feels so godamn horrible. I’ve been trying to act like I didn’t care but when they were driving to the airport I couldn’t stop crying. My mother was so hurt and they kept saying they loved me. Last time we went to a family vacation was when I was around 13. I cried so much I had cramps in my abdomen.
I wrote them a message trying to make them understand what I was feeling and that it hurt me alot. I got back that I was ruining the vacation and to just accept it. They said they thought I wanted to be “free”. I know it might have been an asshole move to mention this at the first day of their vacation, but the pictures they sent being all happy made all my emotions I’ve tried to hide come through. I’ve never felt this left out and I feel like I’m not a family member. I’m trapped in this house taking care of an animal when they are out being a family on Holliday. I feel heartbroken.
My plan right now is to leave the pet with a relative and go back to Uni and dive into school to forget.
How can I forgive them? Has this happened to anyone else?
